Few days ago, I came across this realization. It's weird, really. Considering the fact that I have never realized it before. It was very sudden and surprising. I was stunned. Shocked, more-like. I know it was something that has happened before, but that was what.. a year ago? I didn't think the feeling would come back. I didn't think I'd ever feel so sure of myself. And now, after spending hours and days thinking about it, I realize that you're right. I was wrong and I'm sorry. It's hard to apologize without being straight forward. I don't want to bring it up again because that just brings back the wrong memories. What I'm trying to say is, I don't know if you've noticed but it would be great if you just push aside everything and forgive me. 'Cause I heart youuuu...
'I was at the concert. Just standing there, arms crossed. I refused to speak to anyone around me. My gaze was transfixed on you. I don't know why. I know this sound utterly stupid but it was like some sort of magnetic force. I just couldn't tear my eyes away. No matter how hard I tried. I know you suffered heartbreak and I know I hurt you. You have absolutely no idea how sorry I am. I was stupid and childish and I was scared of making the wrong decision-'
'But why would you be scared? You make decisions all the time. Everyone makes decisions all the time. So why the hell would-'
'Because it was you! Don't you get it? Because it's you we're talking about, that's why this makes everything a solid ten times harder that it actually is. I don't know whether I miss you or whatever but I do know that no matter how much I try to forget it, it comes back to me.'
'You can't- you can't just come in here and say you miss me and that you want to take back everything. You just can't. I love you. God, I do, but I can't just give up everything now. Yes, you're right, I did suffer heartbreak and it was like all of hell broke loose but I put up with it. I planted the thought that you would never come back and that we were over in my head. I did that, you know. It was the hardest thing I've ever tried to accomplish in my life, just trying to forget you.'
'Oh god. I love you. And I promise I always will...'
