You change your mind like a girl changes clothes

boo hoo

2009-02-15T21:43:00.001+08:00

Maria you are really annoying

BYE BYE.

My caterpillars died and I cried

2008-11-21T13:48:00.004+08:00

It's only Friday, you know. It's only been a week since the last day of school. Time flies sooo slow. Nope, not fast- slow. It doesn't make sense. Time is suppose to fly fast. Maybe I'm waking up too early. Yeah, maybe I should wake up later. But my body automatically gets up at 8.30 in the morning everyday. Whether I try to sleep or not, once it's past 8.30, my body is wide awake and with that, so am I. And then, I have the entire day ahead of me. Gaah. It's okay. I will find something for myself to do. To keep myself occupied while certain people cough ahem cough are still sleeping on their lazy asses.

Okay, since I've got nothing to do. I stole a tag off Mr. Hubert Cumberdale's blog, aka. Tan Jia Shern. He is Hubert Cumberdale for a reason and if you are either myself, Chien Teng or Maria who is reading this, you probably wouldn't know what I am talking to about. So leave it that way. It's our little inside joke. And knowing you, if we told you the little joke, you'd merely shake your head and call us a bunch of lifeless brats. So, I think we're going to stick to it being just OUR joke. Thank you very much (:

1. are you lonely? right now, yes.
2. are you happy? right now, no.
3. are you sad? right now, no.
4. are you Indonesian? erm, no.
5. are you expensive? YES :D heh.
6. are you blonde? no.
7. are you Irish? no.
9. are you desperate? no.
10. are you male or female? female. Finally, something other than a yes or no question.

Ten facts

1. name: Shanni
2. birthplace: SJMC
3. real hair color: Black
4. Ethnicity: Blank.
5. Talent: I'm cool doing whatever I do okay ;D
6. birthday: 13th October
7. mood: Restless
8. favorite color: Orange
9. where do you live: Mutiara Damansara
10. left or right handed: Right

Ten things about your love life

1. do you love someone? Yes
2. do you believe in love at first sight? Maybe.
3. who ended your last relationship? Erm, I did.
4. have you ever hurt anyone emotionally? Yes.
5. have you ever broken someone's heart? I don't know.
6. longest relationship? Two years ago. Lol.
7. have you ever liked someone but never told them? Yes, I wasn't brave enough.
8. are you afraid of commitment? Sometimes
9. have you hugged someone within the last week? Yes
10. have you ever had a "secret" admirer? I wouldn't know, would I?

Ten this or that

1. love or lust: Love
2. accent or no accent: British accents are so hot.
3. cats or dogs: Dogs, they're better company.
4. a few best friends or many regular friends: A few bestfriends.
5. myspace or friendster: Facebook.
6. pepsi or coke: I absolutely hate fizzy drinks.
7. wild night out or romantic night?: A romantic night
8. money or happiness: Happiness
9. night or day: Night
10. IM or msn : MSN

Ten have you evers

1. been caught sneaking out? No
2. been skinny-dipping with your bf/gf? Erm, no.
3. done something you regret? Yes
4. bungee jumped? YES :D fun, fun.
5. lied to someone you loved? Yes and I'm sorry.
6. finished an entire jawbreaker? Haha. yes.
7. looked through a significant other's phone, email, myspace, etc. because you thought they were cheating on you? Nope.
8. wanted an ex boyfriend/girlfriend/date back? Ages ago, yeah.
9. cried because you lost a pet? My big, fat, green caterpillars died and I cried x)
10. wanted to disappear? Yes

Ten preferences

1. light hair or dark hair: Dark
2. hugs or kisses: Why can't I have both? Lol.
3. shorter or taller: Taller
4. intelligence or attraction: Intelligence
5. Jeans or shorts: Shorts, way more comfortable
6. English or math: Maths!
7. hook-up or relationship: Relationship
8. do you want a girlfriend/boyfriend: I have a boyfriend.
9. sun or moon: Moon
10. day or night: Haven't I already answered this?

I tag:

Whoever, like me, has nothing better to do with their day except for eat McD.

FITCH: get this.

On 'Surgical Hotties' blog. He did a tag. Read, read..

4. have you ever hurt anyone emotionally?

Yes.
5. have you ever broken someone's heart?

Err. Please don't ask :/

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8. wanted an ex boyfriend/girlfriend/date back?

Yeah, I realized the person's not worth it :D

Ouch.

100th and counting :D

2008-11-20T16:23:00.002+08:00

A girl can camwhore all day long I swear. Shea & I stole our dad's dSLR Nikon camera and literally spent out day with it :D
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Oookay, the uploader clearly doesn't like me anymore for some reason because it is taking sooo damn long. I wouldn't blame it though. We just took about a hundred and one pictures. Tee hee. There are like, a lot. we were in them middle of a Guitar Hero game, which she totally rocked at. But it was just luck (; and I went to my dad's room and took his camera and tada. Next thing we know, I have to recharge the thing because it was out of battery :D We're nuts, yes, we know.

Bryan, bryan... Lookie here : (:

It's still fresh!

I told you I'd take care of it.

xx.

One, two, three, four, someone's knocking on the door

2008-11-19T20:26:00.003+08:00

My feet are killing me. I got back about an hour ago from a five hour shopping spree with my mom. You know how the entire world is apparently in recession and we're all suppose to be saving up and not spending our money on worthless things like clothes and shoes? Well, we totally spent big bucks today on, guess what? Clothes and shoes. We feel so bad. My dad is going to have our heads. Aha. At least I'm not the only one who is going to get it. My mom was the one with the credit card (; tee hee. Mother's aren't that good either, see.

I'm waiting on the pictures of the sleepover from Sarah. She has everything as my stooopid piece of a camera totally died on me halfway through the first day. Did I mention we had so much fun? We played cards, you know the usual. And then, we watched White Chicks. It is hilarious. I had almost forgotten how funny the movie is. We ate cupcakes that time. Then, we had a little bonding time before heading for Curve at about 4 something. Met up with Bryan and Yan Shian there. What's the story there, eh Ce? (; heh. We got ourselves a triple scoop chocolate and vanilla ice cream from New Zealand Natural and just sat down and ate it. We were just talking and yeah. Bryan merajuk during that period of time because I wouldn't break our deals. It's a deal, it's not suppose to be broken my dear.

Then, I followed Shea & Bryan to McD, once again, to fill their oh so empty stomachs. Eek. How one can eat so much McD and not get sick of it is beyond me. He kept asking me to drink the fizzy green drink thing that they're selling in relation to Madagascar 2. So yeah, I drank it because he thought I wouldn't. And you know how I don't like fizzy drinks. They make me feel all weird, the gas and all. So, I squirmed and coughed and they just laughed. Boo hoo you two.

Oh oh did I mention that there was this huuuuge Madagascar carnival at the centre of Cineleisure? Well yeah, it was big. And there were all sorts of games there. So, me being me, went to play Guitar Hero and got myself a free McD fries! :D I'm cool like that, yo. Sarah played some game on one of the laptops and got herself a Breakfast Premium card. Lucky bitch. How come I only got one coupon for free fries? Fries are so unhealthy.

We caught Madagascar which was pretty funny. Halfway through, my FITCH joined us. And without an entrance ticket too. Heh. She didn't understand crap apparently because she missed literally half the movie. After that, headed off to Paddington's for dinner. We completely humiliated ourselves there. I'm pretty sure they couldn't wait till we left the restaurant. Also, we got one whole main meal that cost RM12.50 on the house. We didn't even protest about it taking so long. We merely asked and the waiter said we could get it for free. He was nice. Should've given him tips. :D

Headed straight home afterwards. We resumed to playing cards though we weren't really in the mood. Maria put on her iPod and the next thing we knew was my dock was blaring all sorts of weird music from it. We knew none of the odd songs. That girl sure has some weird taste in music. Then, we decided to interrupt my dad while he was watching Dark Knight. I left halfway to drop Bryan home. Some car ride it was. Ahaha. Anyways, they were still watching when I got back. I joined them.

Played 'Scene It'. The Harry Potter and the Friends one. Maria aced at both. We refused to continue playing because she kept winning. Put on Gossip Girl instead. OMG. I quote Maria: I don't think I could ever hear a 'xoxo, Gossip Girl' ever again. It'll make me throw up. We stayed up till 4.30 in the morning watching it. Each of us took turns in falling asleep halfway through but woke up after twenty minutes or so (: At least I did. Off to bed it was, then.

The next morning, we were up at 8.30 latest. First song we heard in the morning was 'I'm a Vampire' by Antsy Pants. OMG. It was scary. To hear that as the first thing to hear in the morning I mean. Haha. Had waffles with ice cream for breakfast. Mm. It was yummy. Showered, got dressed and went to Cineleisure for an amusing bowling time. Nyahaha. We were such losers. Sarah, Shea & Maria sent three different bowling balls down one lane at once. Two were stuck at the side while one rolled in. Stupid, stupid. I think the lady at the counter was on the verge of screaming at us. We enjoyed ourselves though.

Had pizza and watched Mamma Mia at home. It was a tad bit slow but an a-okay movie. I have no comments. We also popped popcorn. Oh. Lam and Yan Shian came over so that means Sarah and Celine were overjoyed (; Bryan decided to stay home so oh well ): Later, Maria & I played Guitar Hero I aced at this now, heh. While Sarah and Ce bonded in my room. We baked muffins after that. They looked all disfigured and gross but were actually pretty good :D The best tasting food are the ones which are not properly decorated. Bryan came over then.

Everyone went home after that. Bryan stayed to watched erm Tropic Thunder. The movie is so stupid, we didn't even finish it. Whoever says it's hilarious has an odd sense of humour. Then, we watched Titanic but we didn't get to finish it because he switched the tv off! Psh.

I think I am going to stop here. This is such a long post and I feel like going to bake chocolate chip cookies. Yumm. I'll be back yeah.

Tagged by: The one and only NICOLE CHEN :D

Pass this quiz to 10 people whom you wish to know how they feel about you.

1. Maria Liyana
2. Tash
3. Mei Yi
4. Kitt Mun
5. Ky Lynn
6. Sheela
7. Chien Teng
8. Jia Shern
9. Demie
10. Jason

Who is no.6 having relationship with? [Sheels]
She's single, if I'm not mistaken.

Is 9 a male or a female? [Dems]
Female.

If no. 7 and no. 10 are together, will it be a good thing? [Chien Teng & Jason]
Whoa. I can't imagine that but sure, I guess.

What is no. 2 studying? [Tash]
She just sat for her PMR and is going on to form 4 next year.

When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3? [Mei Yi]
Sometime in the last week of school.

What genre of music does no.8 like? [Jia Shern]
He's one odd one. So I presume his taste of music is incidentally odd too :D heh.

Would you ever woo no. 3? [Mei Yi]
She loves me already (;

How about no. 7? [Chien Teng]
She loves me, too!

Is no.4 single? [Kitt]
Yesh, she is.

What is the surname of no.5? [Ky Lynn]
Tan.

What's the hobby of no. 10? [Jason]
Going to Red Box and spending time at Laundry right Jason? x)

Does no.5 and no.9 get along well? [Ky Lynn & Dems]
You could say that, yeah.

Where is no.2 studying? [Tash]
In my school (:

Say something casual about no.1. [Maria]
She's my virtual wife and my best best friend.

And she apparently can't attend a sleepover till she is twenty two.

However, she just broke that rule :D

Haveyou ever tried developing feelings for no.6? [Sheela]
We are tap buddies. That is all (;

Where does no.9 live? [Dems]
I have no idea actually. Hmm.

What color does no.4 like? [Kitt]
Blue. Pink. Yellow. Red. Purple. Orange. Green. I don't know. All the possible colours in the world?

Are no. 5 and no. 1 best friends? [Ky Lynn & Maria]
Erm no. but they do know each other.

Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world? [Chien Teng]
Nyahaha. She sure is- as Jeremy Fisher. (;

Ohhh she is so going to hate me.

Love you, Chien Teng! X)

I'm a vampire, I'm a vampire, I'm a vampire

2008-11-18T09:48:00.002+08:00

Sleepovers are the best when you have your three most favourite people on earth present. It was a blast and we were worse than bad. I just woke up so I'm a little dazed. Bur when my head clears up a little, I will put down every little detail of the past two days. It'll be like reliving it. Ah. I'm going to watch Quantum of Solace today. A lot say it is crap but everyone has different opinions, don't you think? I'll see if it really is crap. Oh and by the way, MADAGASCAR 2 is worth watching :D

See you later, alligators.

Loves.

Is it a YES or a NO?

2008-11-14T14:46:00.002+08:00

Time is flying ever so slow. OMG. Especially when you have nothing to do. I've been sitting here since the moment I woke up this morning which was around 9 and I haven't budge. I only left my room to grab some lunch. God help me. Give me something to do. Somewhere to go. Someone to talk to. Otherwise, I have a feeling my upcoming holidays are going to be very, very slow and dreadful. Gaah. Boyfriend, wake up please. I am literally dying here.

Oh. I promised pictures from Chien Teng right? Haha. Okay then. Here you go. Please don't laugh. I know they are somewhat embarrassing x)

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Scratch that. The uploader's being a real pest. It's so slow.

I'll get them up soon I guess. Aha. Though I don't know when, really.

But if you're really desperate to see the pictures, Chien Teng's blog says it all :D

I think I am going to go erm pester my mom for something to do. Maybe she'll take me shopping, who knows (:

Counting down the number of minutes left to go

2008-11-13T21:48:00.005+08:00

Today marks the last day of school in the year 2008. Actually, we are all suppose to go to school tomorrow and tomorrow is our actual last day but you see, with a genius smart school like Sri KDU, tomorrow is our 3-Way Conference. And so, day off for us. Today was a pretty good last day. I woke up so late this morning because I slept later than usual last night. And on top of that, I forgot to set my alarm. So I only got up this morning because I kicked my quilt off the bed and it was cold so I kinda got up to get it and I saw the time. So so late, I tell you.

Anyways, fast forward. I got to school and the usual bunch of us played cards again and again. I completely lost my winning streak. I totally had it yesterday and like, won four times in a row. Kar Munn says it was luck. I beg to differ :D Stupid cards are so damn addictive. My most favourite people on earth Sarah, Maria and Celine and I just sat still, eating omelettes and played cards over and over again. Ah. Call us lifeless. We've already been told.

Kun and Leon and Waihowe joined us after a while. Kun sucks at card games :P haha. Spent the next two hours or so with Bryan. Walked around and what not. Oh oh. After that, met up with Maria, Nicole, Chien Teng and- Ian at the primary block to get henna done (: And that was when all the retarded doings started. It is all Chien Teng's camera's fault actually. If it wasn't for her camera, we would've been much more civilized. Or so I think. We took such random pictures. We took a lot of 'Salad Fingers, Jeremy Fisher and Marjory Stewart-Baxter' pictures just now. Credits and hugeee thanks to Nicole Chen :D We promised to edit in Hubert Cumberdale's face with erm Ian's body x) Good luck with that Jia Shern. Haha.

Chien Teng is in the midst of sending me the thousand and one pictures. Sooo slow, my God. I could sleep for a century or so and wake up and it still wouldn't be done. So patience yeah. It is going to take a while. I will put them up once I've got them all. I promise.

Okay. Right now, I have to go and ask Ryan why he is leaving and entertain his and Simon's conversation online :D They are a weird pair but I love them both. Catch you later.

I just want to say that I have had a very eventful school year. No doubt about that. It was fun, though certain parts weren't exactly the happiest bits of my life. I am sorry anyway. For whatever I have done. Whatever mistakes I have made. Whatever accusations I have thrown at anyone without any solid proof. Maria, Sarah, Celine, Weng Yan, Sonn, Jade.. you girls have been with me the entire year and I love you all. I am truly sorry for- yeah, you know what I mean. The class and everything would be so different without you girls.

Ah. Now all I'm thinking about are the 'what ifs'. You know, what if she hadn't transferred? What if we hadn't fought? What if he hadn't come into the picture? Things right now would be sooo different. I can't even imagine what things would be like. Seriously. I can't even imagine. Anyhow, I'm not complaining about the way things are. I'm rather glad actually. (:

It's coming to an end. And I swear I will miss each and every one of you. Those who are leaving ahem Ryan and those who aren't, too :D

Love you all for an amazing school year.

Now, I just have to sit for PMR next year. Right. Bubble popped.

That's what I do every night

2008-11-13T01:39:00.000+08:00

You're the last thought in my head before I sleep,

And the first in the morning when I wake up.

I like the red water that comes out

2008-11-12T20:54:00.001+08:00

Meet- US :D

Shanni Salad Fingers

Maria Marjory Stewart-Baxter

Chien Teng Jeremy Fisher.

Jia Shern Hubert Cumberdale

Bahaha. Okay. This is a personal slash inside joke between the four of us. It's so retarded, it'll make you roll your eyes and ignore us. Damn. I shouldn't have deleted out conversations. I will put them here the next time we have one. Which will probably be later tonight. Heh. It's so stupid. Jia Shern is the official King Of Freaks. He just has problems admitting it. You have issues, Hubert. Psh.

'... somewhere over the rainbow.'

'... i've got a fish cooking in the over but I just can't reach it.'

Oh. Oh. Did I mention that each one of the three of them have different tastes? Yes, they do.

Marjory tastes like sunshine dust.

And Hubert tastes like soot and poo! It makes you cry, really.

And Jeremy taste like- God know what. But it's probably not very good :P

Tee hee.

Oh geez. We are freaks. : /

Somewhere only we know

2008-11-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

You all know Demie right, right? (: Stupid question. I know you do. Anyway, she thoroughly insists that I do a 'Dear Demie' post for her. Me being me, gave in and decided to be nice so here I am. I have no idea what I am suppose to write about in this odd letter slash note to her but here goes.

Dear D E M I E,

I don't know what you expect me to say here but don't kill me if this wasn't what you wanted :D

Erm. Wait, hold that thought, did you want me to do this because you're expecting an apology- is that what this is about? Boohoo Demie (:

Anyway, I am sorry for erm- let's see. Ooh. I am sorry for saying that I'd call you back after dinner but I didn't call you back. I was doing God knows what. Tee hee. But yes, I sincerely apologize. Okay, you can't see me now but I am rolling my eyes x)

Nyahaha. What else, Dems?! What else?!

Ahh. Dah laa. There. You're 'Dear Demie' post. Hope you like it.

Love you monyet.

xx.

The world keeps spinning round and round

2008-11-10T13:39:00.008+08:00

I guess I owe you an apology.

Dear M A R I A,

I am so so sorry I didn't come to school. I didn't know the date. I completely forgot today was the 10th. I haven't written down the date in like, ages. SORRY!

I will make it up to you.

You can't hate me ;P nyahaha

I've done so much for you, you just have to love me.

1. I took his locker name for you.

2. I listened VERY, VERY patiently as you droned on and on about him.

3. I played Jason Mraz with you!

4. I went for High School Musical On Ice with you.

5. I bought you cake.

6. Your card is sitting on my shelf.

7. I have your picture as my display picture.

8. I'm your bitch (;

9. I took a picture of -blank- and now that picture is in YOUR PHONE!

10. .. I can go on, you know.

Anyhow, you love me, I love you, everything's settled? Kay. Good. Now, we can both get on with our oh so boring lives. You , alone in school. And me, alone at home. Oh, how an eventful way to spend our 'anniversary'.

Love you, biitch.

Dear B R Y A N,

I'm sorry I didn't go to school and personally pass you the jersey.

Forgive me.

Aha.

I've made a lot of mistakes. But today, I feel so bad. I don't know if it's the mood swings or what not.

But today is definitely crap. Thank you for putting up with me.

You guys are one in a million.

I don't know how you do it but I love you. Thank you.

[Ediiit]

I've got a new Hairspray craze. I've got all the songs in that one soundtrack stuck in my head and it is driving me nuts. I think I'm just going to sit her and rot away and die. Aha. Now, you'd like that, wouldn't you? I'm being random because of mood swings so- Zac Efron is so hot, OMG. His eyes- so blue. My lunch today was two slice of white bread with ham. I hate my current phone- I want my old one back. Matt, Lam, I want pictures! Oh and I just remembered, SPM officially starts tmr. Crap. All the best fellow form 5's. My sister is so dead. Jia Shern made me watch this sadistic, eerie youtube video last night- I'm surprised I didn't have nightmares and slept right through the night. Bryan, I'm still grounded (: I am grounded- don't know by who, don't know till when, don't know why. All I know is I can't leave the house. Oh, but I just left the house last night to walk to Curve. Does that still mean I'm grounded? Hmm. This just doesn't make sense, does it?

I'm insane.

OMG.

I miss us. Inter-Foundation ballet & Inter tap: Class 2008.

Tagged by Nicole

1. Who are you?
Shanni

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
Why can't I have both? (:

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
I don't, normally.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
That depends- on a lot of things.

5. How many babies do you want?
I haven't decided. Haha.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yes.

7. Wha t is your goal for this year?
Finish Inter ballet in a year.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Erm, what?

9. What's a perfect boy/girlfriend like to you? (List 10)
You

You

You

10. What feeling do you love most?
The feeling after a nice, hot shower :D

11. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
Trust and to never think I'm insane no matter what I say.

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people you hate ?
-blank-

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
I try to.

14. What does flying mean to you?
Flying is when you're completely free. Free of everything- all your worries, all your doubts. Just everything. It's the most carefree feeling in the world and you can never get sick of it (:

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
Chocolate cheesecake.

16. Who's hotter? Chace Crawford or Kevin Peake?
Chace Crawford is flawless (;

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
Nicole : lives life her own way :D

18. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
Erm. I don't know. What do you do to make yourself happy?

19. If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
I'd rewind to the start of this eventful year. For a lot of reasons- good and bad, both.

20. What are your fear(s)?
Loud, sudden noises.

Ghosts.

Haunted houses.

Lizards.

Cockroaches.

Annoying, flying, buzzing things.

Instructions:
Tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

Lee Kitt Mun

Liew Demie

Saw Mei Yi

Tan KyLynn

Sheela Ratnam

Megan Chin

Sarah Nadira

Tash

Kiss me, like you mean it

2008-11-09T19:24:00.006+08:00

Just a random tag I got from Dine's blog.

Hi, my name is: Shanni

But you can call me: whatever you usually do.

Never in my life have I: been on a cruise.

The one person who can drive me nuts is: my sister.

My high school is: like nothing I could've ever imagined.

When I’m nervous: I bit my lip and my nails.

The last song I listened to was: 'I Want You' by Third Eye Blind.

If I were to get married right now it would be to: the perfect guy.

My hair: is a lot longer than it was the beginning of this eventful year.

When I was 4: I had sleepovers with my best friend :D

Last Christmas: I got a Sudoku book from my aunt.

I should be: going out rather than sitting here.

When I look down I see: Desperate Housewives Season 4 (: nyeh.

The happiest recent moment was: simply talking to you.

If I were a character on ‘Friends’: I would be Phoebe. So carefree she is.

I have a hard time understanding: boys.

There are these girls: whom I've known since I was two and I still love them so.

If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: my sister.

I want to buy: a new acoustic guitar.

Where do you plan to go during Chinese New Year?: Right where I am now.

If you spent the night at my house: we'd be up all night watching Friends reruns. x)

The world could do better without: a whole lot of things.

Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: new black pencil eyeliner.

Most recent thing someone else bought me: a red rose.

My middle name is: blah.

In the morning I: never say things that make any sense.

Last night I: stayed up, surfing the net.

There’s this guy I know: whom I think about all the time.

If I was an animal I’d be an: eagle.

A better name for me would be: I like my name actually.

Tomorrow I am: going to school. Joy.

Tonight I feel: great but tired and bored in a way.

My birthday is: sometime in October. Go figure.

Feel free, whoever who wants to do this. It kills time, really.

Take my word for it.

[Ediiit]

Calista tagged me, too. Thank you (: You make me happy by just giving me something to do.

Tee hee.

1. Pick up the nearest book.
2. Open to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the next one/two/three sentences.
5. Tag five people.

The nearest book to me is the one I'm reading: 'The Cupid Effect' by Dorothy Koomson. It's a really erm- how do I put it- a not entirely captivating and interesting book but what the hell.

'Up, to lads who wanted sex on week nights, who didn't tuck their jumpers into their trousers and who could watch telly in silence for a little bit.

Except, it didn't work like that.

The blokes I met were after a free therapist or were psychopaths.

It was on or the other, nothing in between.'

I tag:
; Maria Liyana

; Mei Yi

; Demie

; Chien Teng

; Sonia

Take one step back and relax

2008-11-09T19:06:00.002+08:00

Okay. Let's just say today was a more productive day than yesterday was. And to quote that, I finished Desperate Housewives Season 4. It is so good. You have to watch it. If you have a great sense of humour, then I swear it'll make you laugh. (:

Okay. I suppose today wasn't as productive as I claim it to be, but hey, it was a way better day than it was yesterday. I'm out.

Well, did you hear me say?

2008-11-08T18:57:00.003+08:00

Okay. I'm a bit bored and lifeless right now. Excuse me. But seriously, there is absolutely nothing to do here. Godddd. The only thing one can do right now to kill time is sleep. And apparently, sleeping a lot makes your brain inactive. Lam told me that. So, sleeping's scratched out of the list.

Want to know what I've been doing the entire day?

Don't scream at me if this bores you entirely. Like I said, excuse me :D

I watched Obama's amazingly, unbelievable victory speech.

I watched Vanessa Hudgens talk about how Zac Efron is a good kisser on Ellen DeGeneres.

I watched Taylor Swift talk about her break up with Joe Jonas on Ellen DeGeneres.

I watched Third Eye Blind's music video of 'Semi-Charmed Life'.

I watched numerous Jim Carrey Saturday Night Live comedies.

I watched the 'Just Stand Up' live performance.

I looked for wallpapers of hot celebrities.

I searched for the lyrics to 'Little Things' by Colbie Caillat.

I searched Demie's blog for pictures from last night.

I attempted to sleep but failed.

And now, I'm doing- THIS.

...

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You are a deep, thoughtful, down to earth person. You don't put much stock in appearances.
You are never superficial or flippant. You take time in life to study, learn, and get to know people well.

You inner demon is laziness. You can get so caught up in your own world that you neglect everything around you.
People think you're cute because you're intelligent. Your wit and wisdom are charming.

You Are a Lemon Poppy Seed Muffin

You are smart, sophisticated, and savvy.
You love taking risks, and you are the first to know about new trends.

You are curious about the world and tend to have many interests.
You also are very talented. It sometimes seems like you are good at everything.

You are very social and inclusive. You'll be friends with anyone.
Even though you're very cultured, you're not a snob.

You Are 59% Perfectionist

No one would call you a perfectionist, but you definitely have a side of you that strives to be perfect.
Try to see your mistakes as learning experiences, and don't be so hard on yourself when you screw up!

What Your Love of Gummi Bears Says About You

You are a total goofball. You can't help but be silly most of the time.
In your opinion, life is way too short to be taken all that seriously.

You love playing pranks and telling jokes. You live to make people laugh.
You the type most likely to play with your food before you eat it.

You Are Candy Corn

Your Halloween personality is whimsical, colorful, and creative.
You see Halloween as a time to get your creative juices flowing.

Each year, Halloween can't start soon enough for you.
You tend to go all out for Halloween. You decorate like crazy and always dress up.

You Keep Things Chill

For you, the whole adrenaline thing is totally over rated. You'll take safety over an emergency room trip.
You save thrills for other people. You even get a little sick thinking about skydiving or bungee jumping.
This doesn't mean you don't break out of your comfort zone. You just don't stray too far from it.
Your idea of a thrill is traveling to a new city that's totally safe ... or trying out a new restaurant.

Oh oh, this one is funny. The title of this quiz is, WHAT PICK UP LINE WILL GET YOU A MAN.

And this is my result. Nyahaha :D

Your Pick Up Line Is

See my friend over there? She wants to know if you think I'm cute.

Your Pickup Line Is

Hey... I might not be the cutest one here... but I am the only one talking to you.

There were two different quizzes of nearly the same. So yeah.

Funny pick up lines for a girl, don't you think?

Hmm, whether I'd use them someday is beyond me right now.

More to go!

God, I need to get a life.

You Should Spend Your Summer in the City

You're a trooper, and the summer heat doesn't really get to you.
So you rather stay in the city, where you can sip iced lattes and go to midnight movies.
Forget the beach! You rather be where the good restaurants and stores are.

Your Makeup Look Is

Punk Glam Eyes
You're the perfect mix of rock and roll meets glamour!

Okay, okay. I'm done. You can stop whining and complaining now.

That's what you get for being stuck at home the whole day and not being able to sleep even though you're extremely and insanely tired and exhausted from four freakin' hours of ballet and only less than seven hours of sleep the previous night. Okay, I'll stop now. :D

xx. Love you all.

Hey baby, hey baby, look around.

2008-11-08T16:23:00.003+08:00

I am completely out of my blogging phase. I don't know why. For various reasons, I guess. Blah. Or maybe it's just because I have absolutely nothing to say. Yeah, maybe that's why. But that doesn't mean I'm completely blank. No. When I say that I have nothing to say, I don't mean it literally. I mean it this way- I have nothing to say to the entire public. Yeah. That's better. Some things are better kept in. Be it good things or bad. A little piece of advice, don't whisper behind someone's back. Karma always gets back to you babe. What goes around comes around and you know it

I quote :

The little things that you do to me are taking me over

I wanna show ya

Everything inside of me

Like, a crazy heart that's nervous beating

My feet are stuck here, against the pavement

I wanna break free, I wanna make it

Closer to your eyes, get your attention

Before you pass me by

We're only one day away

2008-10-31T19:04:00.001+08:00

It's the 31st today and the 1st tomorrow.

Oh wow.

Happy Sweet Sixteenth Dems :D

If you- for a moment- think I've forgotten, you're wrong, because I haven't.

Thank you for being there when I needed someone to talk to.

I appreciate it really.

You know you can talk to me about anything right? (:

I'm always here- even if you need to call me to rant about what date Twilight is showing or who is staring in Reaper or how Twilight is much better than Harry Potter.

I'm rolling my eyes as I list down all the things you aimlessly call me for (;

See how I love you dems?

Me love you monyet.

Ahh. I'm in debt of a lot of birthday posts. Forgive me, I have no internet- still. It's annoying actually. I'll get it soon, I promise. In the meantime, I do still remember your birthdays okay. (: Just because I don't have a birthday post up for you, it doesn't mean that I've completely forgotten.

Pst. Thank you for being around. I love you baby.

If I had one wish, I would..

2008-10-25T09:45:00.002+08:00

Gosh. Sorry. It's been such a hectic week. And as you all know, I lack an internet connection at home. Gaah. So now I'm here at Dancesteps using the internet. Tee hee (: I swear, Dancesteps is so cool and upgraded now. I'm sitting here waiting for Ems to come. That looooser.

Anyways, can I just say something? I feel somewhat good but I also feel somewhat bad. It's like a mixture of those two really contradicting emotions. And it makes me feel like crap. But thank you all for everything. I'm not going to elaborate- I've learned that keeping certain things to myself is probably for the best. Even though it sucks to keep it all in but sometimes you just have to.

Oh and just so the few of you who know- know, I've apologized to my brother :D Yes, I said i was sorry for screaming at him. Haha. It was funny considering he had no idea what I was talking about.

Shea and I are the laziest people around. We were occupied with unpacking all our shoes last night. It was late- nearly eleven plus and there were mosquitoes and annoying insects all over the place. And it was so hot, gah. So we decided that if we throw a few pair of shoes out, no one will notice right? I mean, its not as though everyone in the house wears every single pair of shoes we own. Out of the hundreds of pairs we own- or less than that- we probably only wear two or three pairs each. So yeah. Not like anyone will noticed if fifty pairs or so of shoes are missing and gone. Haha. Just so you know, we didn't throw them all out in the end. We actually sat there for quite awhile and cleaned the whole mess up. Mm. But my point is that it's a natural human instinct to take the easy way out instead of gritting it and yeah. You get my drift.

Blah. Ohkay. That was a very random post. I just miss typing out whatever I feel like typing without being judged by others. Life was once a simple thing, wasn't it? Now it's so screwed up, it's nearly unbelievable

We've got a long way more to go and I'm already dreading it

2008-10-14T16:39:00.003+08:00

I know three different people whose birthdays are today. :D

HAPPY 6TH BIRTHDAY SARA SWEETIE! (:

I love youuu and I'm sorry I didn't get you a present like you asked for (;

Tee hee hee.

I love stying up till late at night talking to you about everything. Two reasons:

One, because you're only six and I can ramble on and on about whatever and you won't understand a single word- it's funny. Haha.

Two, because you're only six, when you answer me, it makes absolutely no sense.

Anyhow, I love you :D

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY MEI YI!

We're not extremely close but you're still a great friend.

We go back two years- since the beginning of cheer and we've had so much fun.

Thank you for everything, flowerhorn (:

Loves.

And.. gosh, a long list.

HAPPY SWEET 16TH LEENA!

I'm sorry we don't have a picture but have a great one okay?

Okay, exams started today. Psh. I got up at 2 in the morning to study science. My parents thought I was insane- maybe, I was. But I had to study. Gosh. Stupid, stupid.

I have to go study. Have all three languages tomorrow and I am officially screwed.

Joy..

Another year is gone

2008-10-13T16:43:00.003+08:00

Thank you all for the birthday wishes!

People whom I didn’t expect to wish me wished me sharp at twelve. Some even called. Shocking really because like I said, I didn’t think anyone would remember. Anyhow, you all did and I love you guys so much. I want to cry :D
Thank you...
Bryan, Maria, Sarah, Celine, Matt, Jade, Weng Yan, Sonn, Tasha , Emms, Thalia, Sheela, Shawn, Peter, Demie, Dao Ming, Car, Wen Jun, Jessie, Jason, Ben, Brian, Jia Shern, Lam, Jodi, Arsey, James, Kor kor, Jasmine, Suet, Kitt, KyLynn, Elisa, Nabihah, Kim, Paul, Ai Hong, Pui Theng, Naa and everyone else (:

If I haven’t mentioned your name, I’m sorry. I woke up this morning remembering that I had my modern exam. I completely forget it was my birthday until i looked at my phone and saw 16 messages! Boy, was I shocked. Haha. I love you guys for everything.

MARIA: Omg, I love you bitch. For everything. That message took me like, one bloody hour to read but I read it over and over again. Marital status hmm? Me love you and am sooo glad you’re my best friend. <3>

Ediiit

Thank you everyone- for the text messages, calls, birthday wishes on Facebook and Friendster, oh and on my blog, too :D I really appreciated it. I had a great day. Honestly, and to think I thought no one would remember. I love you all (x1000000)

My retard of a best friend sent my a damnnnnn long text message at FOUR in the morning when she woke up to go to the toilet. How very thoughtful. But the message is hilarious- I just have to put it up here.

(warning: this message will contain major corny content :P but I'm afraid corny chan takes the prize of ultimate corny-ness)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RABBIT.

YOU'RE THE BESTEST BEST FRIEND ANYONE COULD'VE ASKED FOR.

IT'S 3 AM IN THE MORNING SO DON'T EXPECT THIS TO MAKE ANY SENSE.

I AM SORRY YOUR BIRTHDAY ISN'T GOING TO BE YOUR BEST BIRTHDAY YET BUT WE WILL MAKE THE MOST OF IT.

MY EYES ARE HURTING TYPING THIS.

HAVE FUN WITH THE CARROTS BITCH :P

me love you.

i will always be by your side xD

thank you for taking the blame if i ever sound like a stalker to THE IT.

thank you for taking his locker name.

thank you for not getting frustrated when i complain about THE IT.

thank you for listening when you clearly have your own problems.

thank you for the cake.

thank you for the pretty pictures you did for both of us.

thank you for letting me be your best friend.

i am sorry for everything that has happened in the past year.

and good luck for your modern exam and your finals.

don't let BODY CONTACT girl bring you down.

'cause she's not as cool as you are, ichijho.

you will forever be a 'void' in my heart xD

-YOUR DARLING LOVER, MARIA.

(confirm our marital status on Facebook bitch!)

lots of love, xoxo.

told you this message isn't going to make any sense.

OMG. I read this and cried (: I love you Maria. For everything. For the weirdo card you got me. For being there when SURGICAL HOTTIE became a SURGICAL JERK. The list goes on. Thank you. So so much. I love you, bestfriend!

I just want to cry myself to sleep

2008-10-12T14:59:00.001+08:00

I am so disappointed.
Don't tell me i will do well- because you don't know that.
Don't assure me that I did fine- I was there, you weren't. And I didn't do THAT fine.
I don't even know if I did okay!
I want to cry myself to sleep. Full stop.
Gaah.
This is so disappointing.
I am a disappointment. God.
:(

It's too late to apologize.

2008-10-11T15:01:00.005+08:00

Blah blah.

I'm stressing out over stoooopid finals. And plus, I have my tap & modern tomorrow and the day after. I'm going insane and out of my mind. Gaah. I don't feel like blogging. I just feel like posting up these few pictures. We took them yesterday in school when we were supposedly rearranging tables. I really want to get it all over and down with. Then we can all go out, laugh all we want and swear all you like :D

Ahaha, priceless (;

I can't wait for our girl's night out. I need one so badly ):

Ahem I was blinded from the start

2008-10-08T23:47:00.003+08:00

I had a dream- she argued with him and they broke up. I was there. Unintentionally, of course. It was so sudden. She kept saying it wasn't working out and blah blah. I felt somewhat sorry for him. And for her, too. I'm sure there was another, more valid reason to why she dumped him but oh well. Guess I'll never know.

Anyhow, it's just a dream. Right?

++

My sister- cannot tell stories for shit. I swear. She sucks. There is no way you'd understand a word she's is trying to say. Trust me on this.

...

SheaShanni

Okay. I watched 'Up Close & Dangerous last night.
Oh really?
Mm yeah. And the animals on the show are real scary okay.
Like what?
There were 3 animals- a bull, an elephant and...
-pause-
The third animal?
Erm, I forgot. Could you like, name a few animals and I'll try to remember as you name them? :D
WTF. Hahaha.

That was just one of our conversations last night.

The polar bear was damn effin' scary. There were two guys- kay, let's call them ABU and ABI. Abu was driving the truck and Abi was on skis.
Mm -continues texting-
Shanni are you listening?
Wha- oh yeah. I am.
Okay.
-pause-
You were saying?
-pause to think-
Erm, who was driving the truck again?
Abu or Abi?
HAHAHAH :D

Ohoh. (: My sister acts all brave and tough all the time but inside she really is a real scaredy-cat :D She was lying on my bed yesterday. Halfway through what she was saying, she sat up and was about to do this huge hand gesture. When she sat up, she accidentally pulled the curtain wide open and so I found myself staring at a dark, black window.

Shit, Shea there's someone behind you outside the window.
-dives into the pillow and buries her face under it-
Oh fcuk you laa Shanni.
-grins and laughs-

I was expecting a loud shriek or something like that but she just swore. x) It was effin' hilarious.
She said she knew I was kidding and she tried not to be the least bit scared but she couldn't help it and so, in the midst of trying not to be scared, she swore at me and it came out all funny 'cause she was actually really scared :D

I'm eviiil. I know. But she's my sister.
Tee hee hee.

It feels so good, I want to do it again

2008-10-07T16:40:00.004+08:00

Before I go on to what happened today..

LIVERPOOL IS THE BOMB

:D

Omg. If you watched the Man City and Liverpool match, then you'd know what I'm talking about. I'm too lazy to drone on and on about what happened.

Also, Torres is a legend x)

++

Okay. Today- like every other Tuesday- was a really slow and boring day. I swear. The only fun part was when we were in the library and Maria was going on and on about the whole, "Ew, look behind you." and then, "double ew." We were laughing so hard. It is hard to explain. I almost choked. It was a library right and we were suppose to be quiet. But I was laughing so hard, I cried and mind you, it is so damn hard to try and not laugh out loud when you are bursting with laughter. It gives you the whole choking feeling. I needed to get out of the place just so I could laugh.

Then, also something about AHEM spitting into Maria's hair :D omg omg. Hilarious. I just wanted to die of laughter.

An hour later though, that feleing died and I don't know why. Lunch was dreadful. Psh. Boring and, yeah plain boooooring. Mm. Here's where it got a little ineteresting. We were having KH and I was busy hand-sewing that stupid piece of cloth when suddenly the guard comes to the door. I knew what he had wasn't for me so I didnt bother to look up. But, but- then, Ms Michelle called my name and when I looked up she was holding a huggeeeee helium balloon that read, "Have a rockin' birthday!" and Hersey's Chocolates. I was like WTF. There was a card but no name. I recognised the writing though and the first thing I said was, "OMFG. My mom." :D

So yes, my immature, childish mom sent my a freakin' big balloon and chocolates- as a joke, I presume. Haha. Laugh all you want- you haven't heard the rest of it yet.

...

The balloon- sings. Yup, you read right, it sings. S-I-N-G-S. Some version of a happy birthday song. Aha. It was such an embarrassment but oh well, she's my mom. (:

I love you mommy and thank you. For everything.
(: I just want to cry.

++

Gaaah. I miss you and my internet isn't working right and I've no phone.
Could things get any worse?

I'm out.
Had an a-okay day actually. :D
Love you mommy. Again.

[Ediiit]

I was just reading blogs. Okay I know I'm suppose to be studying right or something but omg, studying gets boring after a while. Don't deny it, you know it does. Anyway, like I was saying, I was reading blogs. Random people's blogs and I happen to come across- this:

Last thing, shanni ah shanni. Bryan and bryan. Congratulation . . . :D hahahhahahahahahhahahahaha.
So cute :D :D :D

OMG Jessie. Whaaaaat is that, really?
(;

++

This is a long story but- yeah.

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO SARA && ME :D

Mm. Cake was good (:
Ahaha. Oh well. Like I said, what a day...

I'm counting on you.

2008-10-05T15:22:00.000+08:00

OMG.

STOP, STOP TALKING TO MY SISTER.
TALK TO MEEEE
(;

It's only your lullaby that will make me sleep

2008-10-05T14:38:00.004+08:00

Have you ever been locked out before?
Of your house, I mean.

:D

I just got home from 3 and half tiring hours of dance. I was going to go inside the house when the door wouldn't budge. After fidgeting with the handle, I realized it was locked. So, I reached into my bag for my phone to call my sister so she could unlock it and let me in. But nooo, guess what? Phone was dead. Completely dead. Not like, out-of-battery dead. It is DEAD. Like, it DIED. Anyway, that's besides the point. So yeah, like I was saying I couldn't call my sister. I was contemplating on whether to scream at the top of lungs so someone would hear me and let me in but no, I decided against it. Bad idea. So, instead, I went around to the back. The back door was locked, too. Tough luck. But the windows were open (; so yes, I climbed in through the windows. My maid was in the kitchen and she saw me enter through the windows and gave me the whole wtf look. I was like, "the front door was locked."

Ahaha. Climbing through the windows is fun. Especially when no one knows you're doing it. It makes you feel all mysterious-like and as though you're up to something.

Besides that, did I mention, PHONE IS DEAD. Omg. What am I going to do without my phone? I'm trying to think of what excuse to use when I tell my parents. Not that I really need an excuse 'cause it just shut off, just like that. But still, a backup excuse won't do anyone any harm.

Or so I think : /

Anyways. Last night, the moon was in the shape of a crescent. Did you notice? Well, I noticed for some reason. And I told Bryan that. And apparently, it's not a crescent to him- it's called the C moon. Or something like that. (: Aha. I said that the original name was crescent. Then, he said something along the words of, " a crescent moon is C, a half moon is D, full moon would be an O (I think). And then it goes backwards. From being an O, to a D, to a C and then... BACKSPACE."

I was like, "what? Backspace?"

He said something about it being the same as typing on a keyboard. 'Backspace' would kinda be nothing, right? And so yeah, when ther is no moon, it's called BACKSPACE. Hahaha. I laughed so hard. (:

Ohoh. Then then, we talked about the sky being sort of a Pacman game. The moon would be Pacman. The stars would be those things that it eats, you know those tiny things. The clouds would be those random ghosts that chase Pacman around :D And then I said the 'power up' things would the comets. Aha

Also something about eating Koko Krunch with chocolate milk. I said it was good. It is ohkay! He said it was like having chocolate with chocolate. Strawberry with strawberry milk. Then came durian with durian milk. Ahaha. He said if you fed a cow durians, you'd get durian milk. [Okay this next part is utterly morbid and gross. Just a warning.] And if you fed a cow humen flesh or something, you'd milk out blood.

...

Did that last sentence make you stop and want to shriek and run? Mm. I totally get it if you do because I freaked when he said that. Omg omg omg. Milk blood? Eek. And get this, he went on about some person's hand coming out of some person's stomach.

THAT IS SIMPLY DISTURBING.
It could easily give you nightmares x)

I kept going, " uhck, omg. Stop it. Enough. Gross. That is so disturbing.." blah blah blah.

He said to shut up. I'll stop here now. The rest of the conversation is- for me to know (;

++

Okay. This is one long blog post. Well, it was an interesting conversation we had last night and I just had to blog about it (: I think I'm gonna go now. I've spent too much time on here and too little time drowning myself in my books. Ahck. I have to go.

A little countdown to a hectic week ahead:

In..
4 days - RAD Ballet Inter Found Examination
7 days - ISTD Inter Tap Examination
8 days - ISTD Grade 6 Modern Examination && happy birthday to me.

Oh wow. In slightly over a weeks time, I will be an Inter ballerina, an Advanced Tapper and an Inter Modern dancer.. Whoopsiedoo
:D

Okay, okay. I'm out.
OMG.

In the back of my mind, I can't help but question

2008-10-04T15:36:00.005+08:00

I feel exceptionally great today :D although a bit tired and sleepy and deprived of sleep thanks to a certain someone who woke me up at 3 in the morning and had me talk to him and keep him company for a solid hour and a half. It was a crazy night okay. OMG, you. Really. The things I do for you. I couldn't wake up this morning and last night- or morning, for that matter- I was texting with one eye closed. Ahaha. Anyways, after half an hour of literally begging for permission to sleep, I slept. Gosh. It was a long night- but it was fun.

It felt like a dream when I woke up though. It didn't seem real, but apparently it was. Aha. Well.

Mm. I feel so light-headed. It's a nice feeling. I don't know why or what triggered this feeling but yes, I do feel so carefree right now. I'm sick and tired of doing effin' science. Stupid, stupid finals. Bah. Instead, I've been banging at the piano keys and playing random notes and songs. It's fun, fun, fun, really :D

Ooh. I also just realized that my MAJOR ballet exam is in five days. Yeah, only five days away. So that means, I'll be skipping school on Thursday. Then, right after that, that Sunday, I have my INTER tap exam. Not so worried about that. On and the next day, Monday, I have my modern exam. What the eff, right? I have all three major exams in a period of five days. On top of that, finals. Talk about great planning and timing. Psh.

Oh. And before I go...

HAPPY FOURTEENTH BIRTHDAY SONN (:

Thank you for being an awesone friend and for being there when all that crap happened.
I owe you big time.
Me love you long time Sonnnn
:D

Okie doke. I'm off
: D

Singing you a birthday song :D

2008-10-03T14:27:00.000+08:00

Uhck, I look bad, bad, bad.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDDY
:D

Shawn you are the bomb okay (: It's not like you read my blog or whatsoever. Anyhow, know that I love you for being a great friend and everything. And and, by the way, I've got Sweet Child O' Mine stuck in my head and it is all your fault. (;
Have a great one!

A slight dosage of laughter and profanity won't kill

2008-10-03T11:05:00.003+08:00

This is effin' hilarious :D
You just have to do it.

How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your Journal).
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

++

My letter:

Dear Bryan,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I realized it when I quoted Santa at a mental hospital and I saw you knock out Machester United's goalkeeper. I'm sure you're open enough to understand that your Honda sucks. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I am better off without eggplant-fetihism.

Good luck on your short-term leave from jail,
Shanni.

++

OMFG. That is sooo funny :D
Bryan, I love you and I just put your name there because you were the first person that popped into my mind. I mean, not a single word. I love youuuu (:

Maria, you idiot. This is- omg. You have sooo much time to look for something like this?
:D

I tag:

Megan
Ky Lynn
Kitt
Kim
Sheela
And whoever else has absolutely nothing better to do like my best friend & I (;

Hey you

2008-10-03T09:59:00.002+08:00

1.The last person to tag you is?

Megan Chin, my Retard (;

2.What relationship of you with him/her?

Evidently, close friends :D

3.Your 5 impression towards him/her?

Amusing
Hyper
Retarded
Oddly funny in her own way
MINEEEE

4.The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you.

She was there for me when- that happened and also when that happened

5.The most memorable words that he/she has say to you.

It's all in a little Valentine's Day card she made for me

6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will...

love her, too!

7.If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...

Nah, Meg loves me way too much ;P

8.If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on..

I wouldn't ask her to improve on anything 'cause what she is now is what makes her Meg.

9.If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is ...

Right, idk.

10.The most desirable things to do for him/her is?

Whatever makes her smile

11.The overall impression to he/her is..

Meg is Awesome! :D

12.How do you think the people around you will feel about you?

Nothing bad, I hope?

13.The character for you for yourself is?

That's for you to tell me

14.On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?

Every flaw within me

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?

ME (:

16.For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.

Mm, thank you.

17.Ten people to tag:

1. Maria
2. Sonia
3. Eva
4. Sheela
5. Iman
6. Jas
7. Tash
8. Jeremy
9. Kim
10. Zhou Han

18.Who is number 2 having relationship with? [Sonia]

I wonder, too.

19.Is number 3 a female or male? [Eva]

Female

20.If number 7 and 10 be together would it be a good thing? [Tash & Zhou Han]

That'd be- hilarious :D

21.How about number 5 and 8? [Iman & Jeremy]

Even more hilarious

22.What is number 1 studying about? [Maria]

Oh, I sooo know how to answer this. She's thinking about IT.

23.When was the last time you had a chat with them?

Erm. Yestderday.

24.Is number 4 a single? [Sheela]

Yes. Unless of course she's with some college dude from KTJ whome I don't know about (;

25.Say something about number 2. [Sonia]

She's adorable

A night like this is impossible to find

2008-10-03T09:24:00.003+08:00

Morning. Again. I have a sudden thing to wake up early and post in the morning nowadays for some reason. Aha. I don't know why but that's me. I am blank right now, BLANK. I had a dream last night. I can't remember the last time I dreamed and actually remembered it. You know how when you wake up your dream is completely erased from your memory- no matter how good or bad or fairytale-like your dream is. Annoying much? Anyway, last night's dream I remember. And it was stupid, mind you.

Gah. I feel like crap.

You know what. I'm going to clear out my room. Mm yeah, I'm going to do that once I'm done posting this. Why, you may ask- because clearing out my room, getting rid of everything, makes me feel good about myself :D Weird, I know.

Ohoh. And I'm going to read through my oh so long list of dreams that I wrote one day. No actually, scratch that. I won't read it 'cause that'll remind me of the hundreds things I want to do so badly and yet am so far away from doing it. Gaaah. Don't you wish everything you wanted was within your reach? Not that I don't have everything I want right now, but still.

Well, it's still early in the morning and I have other things to do- like apologize to someone, for something that I have forgotten to do. But not on purpose! I didn't forget on purpose. But- I don't think that someone cares whether I forgot on purpose or not- I still forgot.

OMG Shanni. What the eff is wrong with you? Wake up and get your head out of this dream.

...

Okay, okay.
I'm awake.

PS. I've got undone tags to do. I'll get to it later. Right now, I want to cry (:
No I'm not going to cry. I'm going to- what was it, again? Clear my room?- yeah, clear my room.
See you when I see you. (:

I want to find you there, want to hold on tight

2008-10-02T10:37:00.005+08:00

Morning. I know it's still pretty early and you're all wondering what I'm doing posting now. Well, yeah I'm wondering, too. Why am I on my blog when I could easily be something way more interesting that this? Ahh. Anyways, I was suppose to post about yesterday last night but I was completely drained of energy and so so tired.

I don't know what to type about. No- I mean, I know exactly what to type about, I just don't know how to put it down. If you ask me for one word to describe everything, I'd say- ecstatic, because right now that's what I feel. But I'd also say unbelievable because even a day later, I still can't believe it. The word 'dream' also fits fine, actually. So yes, you know what I mean when I say I don't know how to put it down in words.

TASHA : You're a genius psychic, yes. I know, now :D Love you babe.

MARIA : You see why I hyperventilate when IT just says hi to you?! Now, you know why I was way more excited than you were for your birthday (: I'll give you the whole story when I talk to you.

SHEA : You. are. an. idiot. :D

PS. I love you <3

The 1st of October

2008-10-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

It's a day to remember.
And only YOU know why.
I love you.

She says, "OMG we're dead ducks."

2008-09-30T17:19:00.003+08:00

Let me just say this.

...

Drake & Josh- that Nickelodeon show- is STUPID. Aha. My sister's watching it now. Like there's nothing better to watch on TV. Something about putting an orang utan on show and getting random people to pay to dance or kiss it. How does that make any sense, really? I mean, isn't there a slightly more appealing animal than an orang utan? I'm sure there are. Right, okay. I don't know why I'm rambling about some show but yeah.

Gaaah. I really have nothing to blog about today. Not a particularly exciting day. So I've been sleeping to pass time. Mm. Bryan asked me to blog because when I blog I post about certain embarrassing facts that only he can understand. God. I'm contemplating on whether to put my blog on private. That way, anything embarrassing, only I and whoever else can read :P Anyways, now he wants me to blog about my life. About how great my life is, apparently.

I am not going to blog about how great my life is because no matter how happy I am, my life isn't great. Sure, certain parts of it are almost close to being perfect but nope. Not great. Sorry.

OMG, I really have nothing to blog about. Maybe after tomorrow, I may have at least something pretty interesting to blog about- but right now, nada, nothing.

So let's just wait and see.

Only time will tell, right Bryan? (;

This. is. my. sister.

The most INSULTING, IMMATURE, IDIOT ever.

Only God knows why I love her

Right, Shea?

It's just us in our own world, right?

2008-09-29T16:34:00.003+08:00

OMG. Can I just say something? Waiting- just waiting- is the most dreadful feeling ever. Like me, right now, I can't wait till this certain day. No it is not my birthday- I am actually dreading my birthday. Like I was saying, I have to sit still and wait for this day to come. I'm trying to find something interesting of distracting for me to do- just to pass time. Something besides studying and watching the TV perhaps. I'm bored of doing both of those.

It's only 4.40 right now. I told myself that I'd study till 5 and then take an hour break or something.

I was watching Charlie and the Chocolate Factory just now. Nothing romantic or even close but I adore the chocolate and how the whole factory thing works :D call me a kid, I don't care. I was just lying down in front of the TV with my head in my hands and staring wide-eyed at the screen. As though I'd never seen anything like it before. My sister said I looked like a little kid, somewhere between the age of 4 and 5. Well- whatever.

I know that is a random picture but it seems appropriate. Snail, 'love is blind'? Put it together and you may understand it. Or you may not. Either way, it's not for you. MARIA: read it. And I promise you, he won't forget. We'll make sure he doesn't (:

And we're back to square one. Joy

2008-09-28T18:01:00.002+08:00

I never liked the overly stressed out feeling. You know, the one that makes you want to tear your hair out. The one that makes you want to grab your pillow and scream ever so loudly into it. The one that just shuts every other emotion out except for anger and frustration. Yes, that feeling. It sucks, mind you.

Can I just vent out all my frustration here? Just for now, please. Forgive and excuse me for this.

Okay, firstly, I know I said I really don't care about what I'm going to do for my birthday. I mean, how coincidental is it that our finals happen to start on my birthday. So yeah, whatever. The fact that I have to go to school and sit for one paper or two on the 13th of October. Ah. Imagine just waking up and knowing that no one will bother that it's your birthday because- guess what? It's finals! Not that I'm asking for anyone to wish me or shower me with presents. I'm not. I'm just saying, it will kind of suck. No one will remember the 13th as 'Shanni's 14th birthday'. Everyone will call it 'the start of finals' or 'the start of PMR'. Well. Thanks.

Oh and to add on to that, I may not even go to school on my birthday. Yes. Want to know why? Hmm. Well, because my stupid stupid modern exam seems to be set on that date. OMG. How annoying is that? So on top of having to sit for my finals, I'm also going to have to sit for my modern exam on my birthday. Two exams, one day.

What. A. Joy.

Have I been that bad a girl to get all this thrown at me? I know, Bryan, that I said I don't care about it being my birthday and that it'll probably be a boring and dead one and that I didn't really mind but- still. It is my birthday. Gosh.

So yes, screw my birthday this year- I mean, that's what everyone is doing right?

Okay, enough of that. A little dosage of anger and frustration is good for everyone once in a while (: Did I mention I'm in a phase where I love watching sad, old, fairytale-like romance movies right now? Hmm yeah. I think I did. Gosh. Seriously, tell me, wouldn't you die if anyone, just anyone looked at you like that? Anyone of the opposite sex, I mean. If someone of the same sex looked at me like that- I'd freak. So, yes, make a mental note of that.

Ohoh, and Maria owes me 4 bucks! :D Oh yes she does. 4 bucks and still counting. We made a deal you see. And I am suppose to be helping her get over a certain someone or snail rather (;and I'm making money in the process. Her idea. Entirely her bright idea. She is a real genius, now that you think about it.

I am so stuffed from eating poptarts and cupcakes with Maria's name all over. I don't think I could ever eat anything sweet like that again. (: No, scratch that, I can eat those all day long. Whee.

Okay. Someone's calling. I'm off to my room to erm- talk. Yeah.

See you, when I see you

Tagged by : The Cool, Kaname :D

1. Post a picture of yourself showing your awesomeness.

2. Have you ever hated anyone by looking at them? If yes, then explain why. If you dont know then do the penalty of tagging 10 people as opposed to 5 people.

Ah. Well, yeah sure. Everyone makes the honest mistake of judging people by their looks. you get what I mean. Sure, that's not the right thing to do but hey, we're in the 21st century. Nothing's right anymore.

3. If time travel was possible, and you stopped yourself from being born, therefore killing yourself, and you can say ONE thing to try and get your life back, what would it be?

I'd say, "I'm back, so deal with it."

4. Name FIVE of your fears.

Lizards. Uhck. I can't stand them. Even the sight. Even if they are about 3 cm long and can't do shit to me- I just can't stand lizards. The dark, it gets scary sometimes. Horror movies. Scary-looking-red-nose clowns : / oh and being crushed, hurt. If you're a friend and you know what I've been through, then you get it.

5. Put your iTunes on shuffle and play five songs.

I'll Be - Edwin McCain

We Are One Tonight - Switchfoot

Bye Bye - Mariah Carey

Not My Time - Three Doors Down

I Kissed A Girl - Katy Perry

6. If right now you could buy two things that costs less than ten ringgit, what would it be?

Kinder Bueno chocolates and random coloured pens. What? I like stationery okay.

7. Right now, think of the title for an autobiography about yourself in fifty years.

Ichijho has made it :D

8. If you had a gun and infront of you stood fifteen babies and the gun is filled with venom, and next to you was your best friend, who do you shoot? If you shoot the friend, he dies instantly, if you shoot the babies, the venom spreads and kills them all. btw: you have to shoot someone, otherwise the venom leaks out of the gun and kills all of you.

Point it at a wall and shoot. Who in the right mind will kill babies or their best friend? Dude, that's just messed up.

9. Which power ranger is the coolest?

Not a fan x)

10. What is your favourite band

Boys Like Girls. Either that or Faber Drive.

11. What would you if your friend offers you drugs, but you reject him, then he forces it on you, but you resist, so he takes out a knife and you accidentally kill him?

I would- yeah, what Maria said- freak.

What kind of screwed up tag is this anyway? Can someone tell me?

12. Who would win in a fight in your opinion, Bruce Lee with his left leg ripped off or CHUCK NORRIS with his beard shaven off?

Ahaha. Chuck Norris.

13. Why did the chicken cross the road? IN YOUR OPINION

Where is the real point in this tag, really?

14. If you weren't a human, what would you wanna be?

Ooh, I'd be an eagle :D Don't ask.

15. Whats the best youtube video ever?

Right now- Nerimon HATES facebook.

TAG 5 PEOPLE :

Sheela

Elisa

Ky Lynn

Kim

Tiffany

Kaname says konnichiwa

2008-09-28T09:19:00.002+08:00

Tralalalalala. :)

I am going to stuff Shanni's mouth with loads and loads of cupcakes with my name on it!!!!

wheeee. (:

Oh I'd kill for him to look at me like that

2008-09-28T09:04:00.002+08:00

Morning. (:

It's 9 sharp here but I'm still sleepy. Oh and 'here' as in Maria's place. She's in the shower right now. She woke me up at 5 bloody 30 and said it was 8. I was like, 'I'm going back to sleep.' Then, she went, 'come one Shanni, I had poptarts just now.' I screamed I don't care then pulled the covers over my head.

We just officially got up. She's in the shower and I'm here- well, blogging. Something I haven't done in a while. Hmm, since we've got a week off, maybe I'll start again. That's if I do have anything interesting to blog about.

God. I'm hungry. I'm craving for cupcakes with icing :D

Ohoh, last night we stayed up till 1 plus just talking about ahem and ahem and lots of other people too. Never get tired of gossiping. We're girls, excuse us. Before that though, we watched The Notebook and Atonement- both of which were sad but we weren't in the mood to cry it seems. Haha. We happen to be going through this phase where we're watching sad, dramatic romance movies. Don't you love movies like that? Ahh.

Speaking of, I watched Camp Rock two nights ago- okay yeah, so I haven't watched it before unlike the rest of you but whatever okay. And besides Joe Jonas being absolutely effin' hot, I kept rewinding to the scene where Mitchie (Demi Levato) sings and he sings with her. OMFG. The way he looks at her. Ah! I would kill just to get a guy to look at me like that. Wouldn't you? Wouln't any girl? I told Maria this and she said HE looks at me like that (: But I wouldn't know, I've never noticed.

Ohkay, she just got out of the shower.

"God, you blog slow."

Oh geez, she's cranky :D I'm off now.

I love you best friend :D

2008-09-23T17:52:00.004+08:00

You know how they say 'a year older, a year wiser, too'? Yeah, well that's crap :D 'cause my bestfriend here, happens to be a year older and hmm, not a lot wiser. Ahaha. She is going to kill me for this. Oh no wait, she can't kill me. I bought her cake!

Happy 14th in the middle of nowhere birthday babe!

I know for a fact that this birthday is the best you've ever had.

I mean, even though you know, none of us wished you at 12 and neither did we wish you in the morning. And even if we all completely ditched you at recess and left Sarah there to drag you about. Now you know it was all for a very good reason.

Did you really think we'd forget your birthday? Did you really think I'd forget it?! God, I couldn't forget it even if I tried. It's like, 23rd September- kaname, kaname, kaname... you know what I mean. Aha.

I hope the cake tastes as good as it looks. It's too bad you're fasting and couldn't eat. Otherwise, I would've sooo bought a bigger and a much nicer cake.

Bicker, bicker, bicker... that's all we seem to do :D Okay right now, I'm in school typing this shit post out because last night, my stupid effing, screwed up intenret wasn't working and i couldn't post this uber long post that I had typed out. Ahh, whatevs.

Okay, I don't know what kind of birthday post this is but- yeah.

I love you Fitch.

Happy Birthday (:

I hope you had a great one. No, actually, I know you did and we all know why (;

Love you always babe.

She is the best friend any girl could ask for.

She's better than good, worse than bad and a real idiot but I'm not complaining.

I love her.

She's a friend when I need one.

She's a shoulder to cry one.

She's my buddy to camwhore with.

She's my confidante to bitch to.

She's my Fitch forever. <3

Happy Birthday darling Maria.

Love,

Shanni.

Let's put our hands up and jump up freely

2008-09-16T19:33:00.001+08:00

I loved the ice cream.

I love that you thought of getting it for me.

I love you for getting me the ice cream

Oh, and I'm soooo sorry it melted x)

Calling at six in the morning, knowing that you're mine.

2008-09-16T18:36:00.004+08:00

All this happened because of you.

Everything's about you now.

Omg, yeah. Everything is about you now.

'I just want to walk and eat ice-cream with you (: '

Quoted: I'll win you over. You already have.

Mm.

2008-09-03T21:12:00.000+08:00

Oh my- wow.

Everyone's staying up tonight, everyone but me.

2008-08-18T13:46:00.010+08:00

I know this may sound a little immature and childish but Maria & I went for the HSM on ice last night. Hey- we got free tickets so why not use them? It was fun by the way. We were being so retarded. Like, we'd never seen people ice skate before. We were shrieking and screaming and laughing. Oh and clapping our hands : D

I'm too laze to post much but here, a few pictures.

These were the pictures I owe you- at Tesco last Tuesday.

Damn jakun, okay.

She's never seen a fish in her life. x)

Ignore this. Haha.

And here's one decent picture.

: D

I love you three!

And these from the Merdeka Carnival which was a real havoc- and very chaotic.

Haha.

Kaname playing Guitar Hero.

She looks so sesat ;P

DemieOWhemy

Buddy ;D

Weng Yan <3

And these are from last night x)

L-R: Kaname & Ichijho (:

Right, and that's Maria-

behind the popcorn box.

That's the guy who played Chad Danforth.

OMG. He's so good-looking, I swear.

(;

Jack Sparrow's morbid looking detachable head.

Maria's toy x)

Ahh, the holidays have started and all I'm doing is sitting here reading and watching Gossip Girl. I need a distraction. Mind you, I wrote those four words about a two hundred times in my notebook. It's killing me.

Black cold silver moon, tonight alone in my room

2008-08-16T15:03:00.007+08:00

Ahh. I just had three hours of ballet. Omg. So effin' tired. I'm freakin' exhausted. Oh well. Just one for month. I love ballet, I love ballet... : /

Anyways. We had our Merdeka carnival yesterday, I'm pretty sure you all know that. I skipped the run. Couldn't be bothered and besides, I had other plans. Maria came over around 8 something 9. She really is such a liar. I was texting her and she said she hadn't even gotten out of bed yet. So I panicked, cause we were going to be late. So I kept telling her to get her lazy arse out of bed. And then, the next message I get says, 'Open your gate idiot. I'm outside :P' Psh.You're the idiot x)

Then, off to Tesco, yet again. Ahh. The cashiers and all there must have wondered what a bunch of teenage girls were doing hanging around Tesco, twice in three days. It must have seemed as though we had no life to them (; Well. So back to what I was saying, we had less than a hour to gather everything we needed for the rest of the day. So, got a trolley and started running around Tesco. Ohmygod. We looked insane. Running from one end of the supermarket to the other. Ahh.

Speaking of, before we got our trolley, we had to go up an escalator to get to the entrance. And us being us, spotted an escalator- but it was the one going down. I was just like, 'let's just go up it laa.' I mean, no one was there. We counted to three then ran like mad up the escalator which was going down. Technically, we were opposing the direction it was moving. I was already laughing so hard when I suddenly noticed the security guard turn. Immediately I turned and went down it. Haha. :D It was so stupid. On top of that, I slammed my elbow right into the railing because we were laughing so hard we couldn't even walk straight x)

Mummy rushed us to school. It was crazy. we kept calling and screaming for Celine. I don't know how to explain it. Ask Maria. We were insane in the car. Mummy was laughing, too for God knows what reason. Hah.

The carnival sucked at first. Really, it did. Problems here, arguments there. Blah. After a while, things were okay. I brightened up a bit. We went to play Guitar Hero, or more like we went to watch Maria the pro play Guitar Hero. Omg. It was hilarious. She looked so damn sesat. I just sat there and stared at- Hah. Right, I stared at certain things (; ahem.

Then, John came and we hung out with him. Totally thrashed him at foos. It's no wonder he didn't want to play x) haha. Oh then, Zhou Han & Brian Chu started throwing water balloons. I didn't want to get wet at first and I told them that, but I suppose it didn't matter what I said. They wet me anyway. The balloons were huge okay. They weren't small water balloons. They were gigantic. Like, the size of a basketball! And they just popped it over my head, letting the cold and filthy water drench me. Gah. I changed into Brian's jersey after that because it was cold and I didn't like staying in wet clothes. And no, I'm not with Brian.

Fast forward. We cleaned up after that. Laughed quite a bit at the stupidest things. The worst part of the day was that sight. Pft. Makes me want to throw up. Honestly. I didn't peg you for such an egotistical jerk. Now though, I really think you are.

Went for the concert at night. Yes I skipped my ballet, which really isn't good but oh well. Made up for that earlier today. It was a great laugh. I forgot about everything that was disturbing and what not at that time. But when I went home though, everything came flooding back. I was annoyed at so many people. Annoyed at the smallest things. I was so pissed off last night, I really can't believe it. Gah. I don't know what to say to you or you or you anymore.

Pictures some other time; didn't take many though.

And congratulations Shawn (:

Maria tagged me. Ahh, to kill time. No actually, this is a good tag. 'Cause I get to stare at them, too. Whee (;

1. Compose a list of YOUR top ten sexiest famous men.

2. Collect one picture of each guy on your list.

3. Post them in your journal.

4. Tag five people to do the same.

The OC's-

Adam Brody

French Hottie (;

Gaspard Ulliel

David Cook

Orlando Bloom

I think he looked so hot in Lord of the Rings.

James Lafferty

Chad Michael Murray.

Chace Crawford.

He's mine forever.

Mitch Hewer.

Gabriel Macht.

Ahh.

The one and only-

Jared Leto.

Fitch has arrived.

2008-08-15T08:26:00.003+08:00

MARIA IS AWESOME

No, she's not x)

Maria loves ANIME. : / ohmygod. secret's out, kaname.

*this is a crap post, it's probably best not to acknowledge it. :)

And she has an elephant necklace.

Oh wow.

And she's drinking milk! From MY cup.

What a b*tch. x)

And she thought my foot was a cat. Pft. A cat?

Where the hell did that come from. : /

"Eh your writing so small, I cannot see, I can't see shit."

Blind, blind bat she is.

Argh,she's ANNOYING.

- shanni. x)

The first step to recovering is admitting you have a problem

2008-08-13T18:33:00.006+08:00

Okay. Really, I have nothing to say about today. Ahck. Today was nothing laa really. First, I couldn't even get up in the morning. I was so tired from God knows what- I really didn't do anything that should make me this tired last night- it just doesn't make sense. Hmm. Well, that's another thing to add to my list of 'Things That Honestly Do Not Make Sense'. The more the merrier, oh what a joy.

Well, Demie just asked me what I was doing and I just told her that I was blogging about a load of crap. Now, I realize I was wrong. I remember sometime today I said I was going to blog about Kitt, Ky Lynn & Car- the overly, insane Lala Gang. Right, I had a great idea on how to do that post. Now I'm just debating with myself on whether I should get it done now, or some other time. Another pointless thing to ponder about. My list is getting loooonnnnggg.

Ahh. Okay. I'm just gonna do it now. I'm going to blog about a few random people okay. These may not particularly be the most important people to me. I'm just going to pick out random pictures and blog about whoever is in the picture. If your picture isn't up, please don't scream at me tomorrow. I probably won't even remember I posted this : /

Tan Ky Lynn

Okay. This 16 year old girl is- ohmygod. I can't put her in words. I just can't find the one right word to describe her. She's absolutely insanity, I swear to God. But she can also be the most level-headed person around. She makes me laugh so hard till I roll on the floor with tears rolling down my cheeks x) If she's not making me laugh, she's holding my hands, crying with me. Be it cheer or whatever else. I know she'll always be there for me, for whatever it is. I've known her for at least two years now and she still happens to know what goes on in my life. The drama and what not. Things I tell myself I want to keep a secret and not let anyone know, I end up telling her.

And, gosh, the things I do for her, too! :D I wait with her till 8 something because she had Paramount practice! I sit in the dance studio, like some damn sesat person there. All for Ky Lynn.

Then, I walk all the way back to Segi with you to retrieve a pair of black, school shoes. Shoes we didn't even manage to find in the end. Haha. I endure the whole 'Taman Sea' senseless conversation with that random guy with you. See, Ky Lynn, how much I love you.

Ahh, on top of all that, thanks for everything, babe. For being there when I was crushed to bits, for sending me home x) for giving me all the right reasons to be thanking you now. I know you've done way more for me than I've done for you. I promise I'll make it up to you. You're my favourite senior and I'm here for you always. Any time, any day.

Lee Kitt Mun

I must say, I'm not extremely close to her. We're close, as in she knows what's been going with me (through dear Ky Lynn, I'm guessing) and I talk to her sometimes, too. But, no matter how distant we are, know that I'm always here for you. I've known her for over a year and still counting ( :

She is just awesome laa kay, Kitt.

I remember last year when you & Ky Lynn & Najwa etc etc, went up to -blank- and screamed at him for what he did to me. Aha. Now that I think of it, I owe you guys big time weih. Honestly. I love you for everything.

I'm sorry this isn't as long as Ky Lynn's one. Like I said, we're not very close but we're still something (:

Maria Liyana

Ahh. This one here- she's beyond words. She's straight-forward, sarcastic, a real girl at heart and a long list more. She's psychotic + hilarious put together. She has huge dreams for a girl like her. And by dreams, I don't mean dreams about what she wants to be when she grows up. I mean, dreams like who she wants, what she wants, which celebrity she wants to meet. Those kind of dreams x) Oh she is so going to have my head when she reads this. Ahah.

I'd do anything for her. I've done the most stupid things on Earth for her! Geez. I've taken people's locker labels for her. Just because she didn't dare but she wanted it so badly. I will never forget that, okay Maria.

I don't know. Some of you think she's a real weirdo, what with her being loud and all. But you're all wrong. She's the best friend anyone can ask for. Witty but smart. A real looser and a bad liar (; She's everything put together and I love her so.

Carmen Chen

Loser Chen

Now, this loser is the best (; Okay. I have a feeling I have to be careful about what I say about her here because Car happens to have some really embarrassing pictures of me and she'll use them against me. Ahh.

If you put the two of us together, we're damn sesat okay. Seriously. Like how we were Monday during practice. We were skipping around correcting everyone's high V's. I'd correct their right hand and she'll correct their left. It was kind of funny actually. Hah.

This girl, has so much to update me on. Psh. I wonder if she's texted me yet today. I don't think so. Knowing her, she probably forgot x) Ahh. Carmen, Carmen. I love you laa. No matter how retarded and sesat you are okay.

Okay. I have a long list of other people to post about but I don't have the time right now. So, there. Those are the four, for now (: I love you girls for everything, yeah. I'm off to watch 21 now. Whee. Thank you Dao Ming for the DVD. And for all the chocolate chip cookies and the chewy bars. Oh and the phone battery : D

I'm out.

Bringing back the happiest

2008-08-13T18:22:00.005+08:00

This post is for Ru Dee Pooh. Her last day in school was today. Everyone seemed fine at first, taking the news alright. But when the last bell of the day rings, reality sets in and then it hits everyone that it's her last day. Ahh. I saw Jas crying ( : Dee cried, too.

I'll miss you, flyer. You go to AIS and show them the Ru Dee we know alright sweetie? I'll miss seeing you in school.

I love youuuu Dee

Add a little bit of sugar and I'll mend slowly

2008-08-12T22:23:00.003+08:00

SheaShanniMariaCeline

-Shea on the phone-

Oh, okay.

Shanni, where's the -hand gesture- ?

The what? Popcorn?

Oh we burnt it.

They burnt- what?! No!

Where's kakak, stupid?!

Oh. Right.

HAHAHA.

You burnt your maid?

(;

Excuse me for not understanding what she was trying to imply with her obviously, senseless hand gestures.

We played a game, Maria, Celine & I. It's called Scattegories. They give you a long list of things. Someone rolls the dice and whichever letter it rolls, we have to come up with words starting with only that particular letter.

Here were the bits that made us laugh so damn hard :D

Shanni

Letter T

Famous Females: Tom Cruise

Maria

Letter T

Things you plug in: Tiger

Shanni

Letter F

Something you would replace: Front teeth

Celine

Letter K

Cartoon character: Kaname

Maria

Letter G

Notorious people: George Bush

Celine

Letter G

Notorious people: Guowin

Shanni

Letter L

Something in the room: Liars x)

They were right beside me, haha.

Maria

Letter S

Crime: Skipping school

How ironic eh?

Haha. I nearly laughed till I cried. It was an awesome way to kill time.

Call us lifeless, at least we have fun.

Lately I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself, light is found

2008-08-12T20:59:00.002+08:00

Gah. So we skipped school today. Joy, joy. It was pretty productive actually. We went to Tesco and got a few things. I swear, we are the slowest shoppers I've ever met. Psh. We took over an hour to get only a few things. Such a waste of the hour but whatever. Was still fun. Then, we went to Ikea to have the cheapest and best hot dogs ever. So worth it. I only spent RM 3 on lunch today. Which is way less than what I spend for just recess in school. Maria says the school should be ashamed of themselves and I happen to agree with her on that.

Then, we got bored and still had a little time left so off we went to Curve to camwhore. You know, the usual. Go into shops and try on random dresses and snap away. Yeah, the usual (; Hah. I'll upload pictures some other time.

Ooh. Guess what else we did?

Maria & I figured out the notes to Jack Mannequin's Dark Blue on piano. Whee. That was fun. We had no manuscript, no score. Just our minds put together. We experimented with the keys and finally got it. : D It was hilarious.

Right, we also tried to make popcorn. Now, that was the only unproductive part of today. We burnt the popcorn. God knows how that happened but yeah, we did x) But, wait, we made pizza, which turned out okay looking.

God, who am I kidding? It tasted bad. Like, yuck.

Long story short, it was a productive day. Up until we started cooking food, ahh. Then, everything went downwards (;

Relationship Matters

Do you have any friends of the opposite sex? Yes. I have best friends, too.

Are you in a relationship? Not right now.

Who was the last person you dated? That's a secret. (;

What is the best quality in a guy/~~girl~~? Trust

Have you ever been cheated on? Not that I know of.

Have you ever cheated on someone? No. I can't stand even the idea.

When was your first serious relationship? When I was mature enough.

Who with? You know who you are.

Have you ever had friends with benefits? I guess.

What makes the opposite sex attractive? Their eyes, body, the way they look at me et cetera.

Do you have a crush? Maybe.

Do you dream about your crush? Haha. I prefer to keep my dreams to myself, thank you.

Is there someone you want to kiss? Every girl has someone they want to kiss.

Have you ever kept a crush super secret? No, I don't think so. I've told at least one of my friends, for sure.

Have you ever done something you regret? Hasn't everyone?

Have you ever hurt someone? Yes and I'm sorry.

Has someone ever hurt you? Oh, so many times. But I've gotten used to the horrid feeling.

Do you care about money? Yes. But I wouldn't love someone for theirs.

Were you ever with someone completely opposite of you? Yes.

Do you miss someone? Yes.

What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? His smile, his eyes.

Have you ever had a crush on someone that was in a relationship? I try not to.

Have you ever kissed a stranger? No.

What would be your perfect date? Something romantic but not to cheesy. Something heart-melting but not too 'all about love'. Something fun and worth remembering.

Do you prefer holding hands or making out? Right now, holding hands.

What's the best physical attribute? Hah.

Lost someone? Yes and it hurt real bad.

How do you feel about long distance relationships? I've never been in one so until then, I have nothing to say.

Do you want them to be smart? Yes but I wouldn't change them if they were not.

Last one of the opposite sex you talked to? Jia Shern

How many people have you dated since January? That's for me to know.

Do you care if they share your religion? No, it's not a huge deal to me, really.

Have you ever said I love you and meant it? I only say it when I mean it. I don't like people who say it just for the sake of saying it. I'm sorry.

Do you believe in love at first sight? No.

Do you think internet relationships can really work? Worth a shot.

When was the last time you slow danced? I can't remember. Haha.

Does anyone have a crush on you? I don't know, you tell me.

Do you want to get married? Every girl wants to have a perfect husband someday.

Have you ever stalked someone? No.

Has someone ever stalked you? I don't know how to answer that.

Have you ever done the love calculator? Everyone has, at least once. It happens to be something every teenager does through their teenage years.

Would you ever kiss someone in front of your parents? Maybe.

Have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex? No.

Have you ever slept in the same bed as the opposite sex? Ehh, no.

Have you ever had sex? No.

Do you bite when you kiss? Am I suppose to answer this? (;

Would you date someone from another state? Depends, on a lot of things.

Would you be with someone with glasses? Yeah, why not?

Have you kissed someone in a restaurant? Nope.

Do you care if they drink? I think every guy has a drink once in a while.

Do you care if they smoke? Yes and I'd make them stop if I could.

Have you ever been called a tease? I don't know.

Have you ever cried over someone who you were just 'talking' with? Yes, I have to admit I have.

Have you ever liked someone from a different country? There was this one guy. But he was from across the world. Haha. I met him while I was vacationing somewhere (;

Would you play with their hair? Maybe.

Would you do anything for the person you like? Whatever I can do, I will.

Do you miss a past relationship? Ahh. Not for you to know.

What's really important to have in a relationship? Trust, honesty, fun et cetera.

Do you like getting massages? Ooh, yeah ( :

Would you date someone that doubled popped their collars? Err.

Do you like to cuddle? Mm.

Tag :

; Maria

; Sonia

; Demie

; Kim

; Sheela

And it kills me inside

2008-08-11T22:38:00.017+08:00

Okay. Now that that is done. I'll move on to today.

Ahh, no actually, I'm too lazy to blog about today. But here, pictures, pictures, pictures. Camwhored like a bunch of idiots. So many pictures, it's making my computer lag. Gah.

Enjoy ( :

Eek, this is so ugly!

Secondary 2 Dickens '2oo8

Us girls.

We never get bored.

Loves.

Odd candid shot.

I likeee.

Sesat x)

Sonia - the Peeing Dog

Weng Yan - Lamp post

Jade - Retarded Car.

I have no idea who kept taking these shots.

These are from my phone. Which Maria happens to think is very clear.

Ebony & Ivory.

I hate to admit their my bestfriends (;

No, I'm kidding.

I'm proud.

Sonia sweetie, so gorgeous.

When you love your girl friends, you'd do anything for them.

Trust me on that.

Fantastic Four <3

And we snuck in Wordsworth to take pictures in the grey shelves :D

Hungry? Try this.

Psh.

Thanks Kar-Munn.

'So NOT Cool' =)

I wrote that.

A girl's bottom half, yet again.

Shanni loves Maria & Sarah.

And the other way 'round, too

Weng Yan, Shanni, Jade.

Ichijho.

Kaname

Sarah, sexy (;

Celine

Ohmygod, I love these girls to tiny bits!

She caught me off guard.

Kar-Munn (:

They were practicing their skit thingi

and Eugene was the Troll.

Funny.

Love you bitch.

Things I need to say:

1. Stop being a b*tch please. God. It's so irritating. I don't want him, God no. You have every single part of him. I don't want anything to do with him. I think you're being really immature about this. You and him as well. It's not me who has no guts, it's you and you know it. I know your life sucks right now and you're having a hard time but leave mine the way it is.

I know that sounds bitchy but whatever, I needed to say that.

2. I'll always be here for you. You know, no one's at fault and no one's to blame. I'm not on either of your sides. I don't see why there has to be sides. But just so know, I'm here if anything. I'm just a text away sweetie ( :

3. Geez, you make my head spin when I think of you.

Why are diamonds a girl's best friend?

2008-08-11T22:22:00.010+08:00

Before I go on to today's post, let me just say, I've got the pictures from Tasha of our incredible outing yesterday ( : We went to Curve right after ballet and got tickets for Meet Dave. You see, tickets for Dark Knight were completely sold out. I know, I know, we're the only two alive who haven't watched to supposedly awesome movie. Heath Ledger! Ahh. Well, that sucks for us but whatever. Hah. Anyway, we ate at The Apartment. God, the food there was so expensive, we had to share a bowl because we didn't want to spend too much. We were so pathetic. But the waiter was patient and very, very nice. So thumbs up for him (;

Anyway, after the movie, in which we smuggled Big Apple donuts in, we went over to Ikano to shop : D

The Apartment.

The nice waiter offered to take this for us.

He saw us struggling apparently.

Kopitiam moments.

We went to PDI and picked out men's shirts from the men's department (:

Every girl has a nice bottom half in a picture ;)

This is our failed attempt of a gangster

Don't mind us.

It's a pretty brown jacket, too (:

I love you, too!

Then, we went to Brand's Outlet. I think PDI was going to kick us out sooner or later so we left as quickly as we could. Hah.

Ahoy, sailors.

Pillow fight.

Shh, I can keep a secret.

I love this picture.

Ooh, and the jackets.

So bright & colourful

For Emma <3

She loves me

I want to paint this picture with just three colours

2008-08-09T13:48:00.004+08:00

Before I say anything else, I just want to say this.

Ahem.

Sheela Ratnam is officially NOT iPod illiterate (;

Happy now?

Yes, it's apparently true. She managed to get her Shuffle working just fine. Huge round of applause for her x) this is fun. I am so so sorry if this kills your moment, Sheela but I find this amusing. Haha. Enjoy it, too. 'Cause now, everyone knows.

Anyways. I'm stuck at home today. The past few days have been pretty long & slow. The only excitement I've had in the last three days was when Sheela- yet again her names appears here- and I ran all the way to Cold Storage last evening to return a pair of tap shoes to a very forgetful Cassandra. It was funny. They were only tap shoes, geez. Not like she was going to dies without them. It was still fun to run so far to return them. Excitement of the weekend. Oh then we rushed home because we wanted to catch the Olympics. It was so jammed ohkay. I missed like the first 20 minutes of it, which apparently was the best part. Other than the passing of the Torch. The Torch Run- now that- was kinda cool (:

Ahck. I feel kind of free in a way. I quote: 'no more worries in my life.'

Ohmygod. I just read Sheela's blog and laughed so hard. Read this. A very rushed conversation we were having while running about, trying to catch Cassandra. ;D

I told Sheela that Cassandra was headed to Cold Storage across the road and then I went into the lift, about to go down.

SheelaShanni

But I'm in my tap shoes!

-takes off tap shoes-

Okay, you go down in the lift, I'll run down, my sandals are downstairs...

What? Why are your-

-lift closes halfway-

...

-lift opens on ground floor-

What are your sandals doing down here?

They weren't down here, they were at first floor!

Then, we ran towards Cold Storage.

-runs-

Weihh, don't run, I'm in slippers!

Oh, right okay.

-pause-

Ehh, then what am I in, boots ahh?!

I don't kn-

-looks-

Oh, right. Haha.

Why are we rushing anyway? It's not like the shoes are alive or something, right.

Lets just get it to her, where is she?

I don't know, what if she left?

Right. I laughed hard when I replayed that part in my head x)

Then, once we got them to her, we went back to the Studio. Only to realize that the only people up there were A i Hong and her students. So, we were kinda stuck.

Eh, who exactly is gonna open the door for us?

Oh shit, I didn't think of that.

Isn't Ai Hong there?

But she's inside teaching!

Oh, right.

-rings doorbell-

Craps. We're gonna be stuck out here.

-sighs-

-door opens-

Ohh thank God.

-snickers-

The look on your face!

And if you think that whole scenario lasted long, you are very, very wrong. When we got back to the studio, only 7 minutes had passed! Ohmygod. I was like, "are you kidding me?! Only seven freakin' minutes?!" Would've expected at least 10 minutes or so to past but no, apparently not. Then, we sat down and took deep breaths x) haha. And Sheela being Sheela took out her oh so very great camera and started snapping away again. It is just a camera.

I kept covering my face with the 'Tap Guide' she gave me. Her camera couldn't focus then :D So, that makes me a genius.

Stupid mirror.

Psh.

( :

I know what's at stake

2008-08-07T20:17:00.002+08:00

I don't know why every little keeps getting on my nerves. God. It's like, it's so easy for me to get irritated with just about anything. I don't know what's gotten into me. Maybe it's you. I don't know.

Anyways. Exam's over. What a joy. Hah. I screwed it up so bad, I'll fail it for sure. Oh well. I didn't think I'd pass anyway, so- yeah :) At least it's over with. Thank you all for the good luck wishes. I suppose I sort of needed them. Though I'm not sure I put them to entirely good use but ah. It's over. I didn't do much today. Came home and stoned. Rather boring and dead day.

It's been raining since one this afternoon you know? Gosh. It was storming and the sky was so damn dark. I thought it would clear up soon but no. I fell asleep 'cause I was up till pretty late last night. And when I got up from my nap, guess what- it was still raining. I couldn't believe it. Then, I went out with my mom and sister for about an hour or two. And when I got home, yeah you can probably guess it- still raining. My God. I was wondering when the clouds would get exhausted and stop. I mean, it was nice that it rained seeing as the weather's been so hot the past few days. But when it rains for, what- six hours straight- no, that's just not how it's supposed to work.

Right now, I've got this really angry thought in my head. And I just want to blog about it. Kinda like venting all my anger out here- it really helps, you know- but there's some part of me, some really odd part that's stopping me from doing it. Damn.

There's a bitch in every girl

2008-08-06T19:30:00.002+08:00

I am so screwed. Fullstop. I've got nothing more to say. Tomorrow is going to be hell. You guys should be glad I'm going back to school for the rest of the day. I bet that if I did, I'd throw a hissy fit over the smallest things. So, so, soooo screwed. Omfg.

You feel disturbed, I feel like shit.

2008-08-05T20:29:00.002+08:00

Oh the feeling has so sunk in now. No, best friend, not the feeling that I'm going to fail my piano exam. That sunk in ages ago. This is a different feeling. A recent feeling. God! I thought I was through with it, apparently not. I think I'm going nuts. No, scratch that. I am going nuts. Like, every damn time I listen to this one song, or maybe two, I feel like crap and the whole thing starts again.

Damn. I thought I had this under control and over with.

Why, why are we so screwed up? Sonn, I know you think no one knows how much pain you're going through. But you're wrong. And I'm telling you this. I've been through it and it hurts like fcuk. Trust me on that. I nearly died the past three weeks. I know you'd expect me to say it'll all get better and that you'll get through it. But I'm not going to say that. I'm sorry. I love you Sonn and I rather you know the truth. It hurts, yes and the feeling just kills you but whatever it is, however long you take to beat that feeling, I'm always here. We're all here and we're not going anywhere. Maria, Jade, Weng Yan, me... We're not going anywhere until you're okay. I promise you that.

I need a little more luck to get me by

2008-08-04T20:59:00.003+08:00

Thanks for tagging me Sonn (: now I have something to do to kill time.

1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

2.Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Hurt and disappointed. But I wouldn't show it.

If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
None of my dreams make any sense, so I don't see how it matters.

Whose butt would you like to kick?
Surgical hottie's (;
Maria gets this.

What would you do with a billion dollars?
I have a whole list of things, but none of them will make me entirely happy.

What's your ideal lover like?
Edward Cullen's twin mixed with a little of Chace Crawford & Jared Leto ;D

Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
I say, being loved.

How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
However long it takes.

If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Hah. That's something I prefer to keep to myself.

Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Yes, something that happened in my dreams.

What takes you down the fastest?
Pressure. Boys. Oh let's cut the crap, YOU.

How do you see yourself in exactly 10 years time?
When I get there, I'll let you know.

Who is the most important to you?
Those who understand the pain I go through.
Those who can tell what I'm trying to say without me having to actually say it.
Those who don't ask whether I'm okay when they know I'm not.
Those who keep a secret.
Those who don't make empty promises.
Those who love me for me and not for what I look like or what I say.

What kind of person is the one who tagged you?
Aww. Sonia is my best friend and I'll whatever for her. I talked to him for you, didn't I? (;
And I'll do it, again if you want me to.

Would you rather be rich but single or married but poor?
Neither.

What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
Try to remember my illogical dream.

Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes, if he means that much to me.

If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
Hmm...

What type of people do you hate?
Liars, cheats et cetera. I don't think it's nice to list it down.

List 5 people you want to tag.
; Ky Lynn
; Kitt
; Demie
; Megan
; Sheela

When I hold my breath, it's you I breathe

2008-08-04T20:33:00.002+08:00

I am not going to blog about today. I mean, yes I feel exceptionally good about myself. But me, being an ordinary teenage girl, I can't help but wonder about the 'what could have been'. Ahh. So typical but whatever. I'm not going back on my words because the previous time I did that, it got me nowhere. And that sucked.

Anyway, enough of that. My family has been having really funny conversations these past few days. Hah. I laughed pretty hard. Check it out. :)

This one was yesterday while we were having dinner. Sara was playing with her cartoon stickers and stuff.

DaddySara

Sara, don't stick all those all over the furniture.

What's furniture?

-pause-

Is that the name of the light?

Hahahah.

I found that so adorable the way she said it (;

Hmm, and these were today.

DaddyMummyShanni

So you mean I have to send the kids to school tmrw?

Err. Yeah.

But I can't take Evan along with me because after I send the girls to school I have to go to school.

What? School?

Pft, school. I meant work.

Hahaha.

I couldn't stop laughing, nearly choked on my food x) The word school just slipped out and it sounded so normal until I actually played that conversation back in my head. Then, I realized it. Lol. There was another conversation which made me laugh but I can't remember it. Haha. I'm watching Friends now so yes, I am distracted.

One more thing. I hate you Tasha & Iman. I want a picture with Jared Leto! OhmyeffinGod. His eyes! I can't believe you two. Pft, Maria, we should've gone x)

Being there when you need me

2008-08-03T11:03:00.002+08:00

It's late morning right now and I already am on the computer. Pft.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY

Shanni, Bunny (KyLynn calls me this), Shan (Kim calls me this)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF

Oh err. I don't know. My eyes, smile and feet! 'Cause I can dance with them : D

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF

The usual.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE

I'm purely chinese.

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T STAND

Lizards, the sight of a lot of blood, the smell of smoke.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU

Bees, cockroaches, horror movies.

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SHOWS

One Tree Hill, House, Friends.

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE JAPANESE ANIMES/CARTOONS

Sailor Moon :D it's entertaining okay! Err. I'm blank now. Hah.

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE NON-ENGLISH SHOWS

Err.. lol.

THREE OF YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONGS

Always Love - Nada Surf, Tongue Tied - Faber Drive, May Angles Lead You In - Jimmy Eat World

THREE MOVIES YOU CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN

Mean Girls, Step Up, Harry Potter.

THREE MOVIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO WATCH

Wanted, Dark Knight, Made of Honour.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS

Handphone, computer, iPod.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW

T shirt, shorts, hair tie? Hah

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP

Trust, commitment, fun (;

THREE PHYISCAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE GENDER THAT APPEALS TO YOU

Eyes, body, hair.

THREE BAD HABITS

Unorganized, very last minute, lazy x)

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES

Dancing, cheer, reading.

THREE THINGS YOU WANNA DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW

Eat- I haven't eaten at all, read and tap. I haven't tapped in two weeks!

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING OR CURRENTLY PURSUING

Performer, magazine editor, designer (:

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION

United States, Switzerland, Mauritius.

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE

Haha. I'll figure this out somewhere along the way.

THREE THINGS YOU WANNA DO BEFORE YOU DIE

Meet Chace Crawford (; Watch Liverpool play a live match, get a car x)

THREE THINGS THAT SHOW THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL

Fussy about appearance, fantasizes about people like Chace Crawford & Jared Leto, enjoys shopping :D

INITIALS OF THREE CRUSHES (current or previous)

Pft. I am so not putting those down here.

THREE PEOPLE YOU TAG TO DO THIS SURVEY

Maria, Kim, Demie.

I stuttered when you asked me what I'm thinking 'bout

2008-08-02T21:41:00.017+08:00

Pictures, finally (; I'm sorry if this bores you.

First picture of an amazing outing.

Awesome photography skills, don't you think?

I had fun here, though I'd never admit it (;

Especially not to Emms.

O 'Briens

And they said Jon looked drunk

Yes, we own the place.

Ugly, UGLY candid shot.

I took this :D

I look horrendous.

I look psychotic.

Jon was inside, hah.

So embarrassing, my best friend (;

Haha, Jon!

Time freezes when we walk the earth

I love you!

Tappers for life (:

Take one, fail.

Words not visible. Haha

Jon was disgusted. Haha

L for Loser.

We didn't know her at that point of time. x)

I think this is the last picture before we got asked to stop

(;

Elements

Cocktail, Rooster and supposedly a Shrimp

Hah.

My best friends.

Believe it or not <3

You're going at it again.

Except this time, it's different.

I'm not as angry,

I'm more of disappointed and hurt.

You are one who makes me so indecisive about certain things.

I don't know how to say this.

Hmm. I was this close to thinking that maybe,

you could be a decent person.

You could be the one I thought you were.

And then, today, now,

I think not anymore.

You've done it again.

You've turned my whole world around.

I'll make every second count

2008-08-02T19:41:00.014+08:00

Okay. I went out with Emms, Tasha & Jon earlier today to Curve. Was there for lunch and walked around and camwhored. Hah. I barely have any pictures with me. Emms & Tasha have them all and adding them up, we took over 100 pictures. No surprise there, knowing us. We're the biggest camwhores I know. I think we freaked Jon out x)

For the most important people in the world.

It was nice to be immature and young again

(;

See.

FOS.

This is Tasha's camera with Emms's face (;

It was funny.

I kept laughing.

Anyways, my family's out now to Gardens. I said I'll stay home tonight because I can't walk. Hah. And before they left, Shea & I were in a good mood so we took our own badge of pictures. :D

I found sitting under the glass desk fascinating okay !

My brother

I quote:

'Put your hands in the air!'

I said to wave.

And this is what I got

Credits to Shea Chew.

Shea was laughing so hard.

He likes the speaker :D

What you see in your reflection is nothing like what you see in real life.

I'll get the rest of the pictures and post them up later.

Pft. Tasha, Mei Yi, Iman et cetera are all at the MTV Asia Awards. Damn. And I'm sitting here at home.

The best I've ever laid my eyes on

2008-08-02T17:46:00.004+08:00

Oh my effin God. Chace Crawford is eye candy (; He's flawless okay.

Ohmygod.

He's a vision in white.

: D

Oh, leave me alone. A girl can dream

I've been held back by something

2008-08-01T19:43:00.004+08:00

I just want to rip my knee out. That's all I have to say about today.

I'm happy now (: I don't know why. Okay scratch that, I do know why but I'm just going to pretend I don't. It makes things less realistic that way. Reality hasn't done me any good the past weeks so- yeah, you get what I mean. I've got another song stuck in my head. Always Love by Nada Surf, been singing it in my head all day long.

I love talking to my mom. I tell her almost everything. It's so amusing to talk to her. About school, boys, dance, drama.. I laugh- every time. I know this probably sounds weird to you. I mean, who ever tells their mom what happens in school? No one, or at least no one I know. Well, news flash, I do. And I'm not afraid to admit that :D

Ohmygod. Always Love is such a good song. Ahh.

I can't remember the last time I posted a happy post. It's all been depressing emotional posts since.. since- yeah, that. And I am sorry, I can't help it. But here. A not so saddening post for all of you. Enjoy. This happiness could end tomorrow. Or tonight. Whenever. Whenever reality sets in (;

Pictures.

My two close friends

Okay, uploader's being annoying so I'mm upload the rest some other time. Or just go to like, Chien Teng's and Sonia's blog. There are a few there.

Okay. I'm off now.

I know a few who aren't gonna let the pressure get them down

2008-07-29T21:59:00.003+08:00

I really don't fancy the idea of blogging twice but I have to. You know the past few days, I've felt great. I thought everything was getting back to normal. And it was. I was so sure of it. I still am actually. I think you want it more than I do, which is a lot to say, considering the fact that I want it a whole lot. Anyways, like I said, I've been feeling great.

Up until now that is. I feel- not bad- but disappointed. Okay. You know what, let's cut to the chase. My supposedly support system has definitely let me down. Ouch. It hurts, but it's not the worse pain I've endured. So, I'm managing fine. Or at least I think so. Right now, I'm doing okay. By midnight, maybe I'll feel slightly worse. Tomorrow morning, I think I'll feel sick.

But if you're still talking to me, then I think things would be fine.

By support system, I don't mean Maria, Sarah, Weng Yan et cetera et cetera..

I love you girls, for absolutely everything.

I mean, someone else.

Someone I'd never thought capable of letting me down.

Damn, I'm going insane.